hai.. my name is risya.. im from Indonesia. i love to sing, dance, smile..and do all the fun things.. ^^ I like listening old song, I like sweet tea :) part of kwaa :)



THE END

it's almost 10 years since i knew my condition

yes, at the 1st time i knew about it
it's like, oh ok, this is the end of my life

want to die :'(
have no spirit to live again
my heart and my mind were shouting : i'm disable!
I rebelled, refusing to wear that brace

every night I cry, yes, disappointed to my God, and keep asking why
many years I tried to survive
try to accept the fact
try to wear that brace

but it did not work
I went back to rebel
I'm really really not ready to accept my condition
no one gave me a support, family? NO
no one understands completely about my condition, what is scoliosis

hhhhh, you know, I love to dance
and until now I'm still dancing
I felt free while dancing
I know what I'm doing could make my condition worse
but I don't care, as long as I can still do what I love and that makes me happy,
I do not care
we only live once

for some reason lately my back very painful
yes I know this because of my condition
but I've never felt anything this bad before
even when I was still actively dancing
is this the long-term effects? who knows

obviously I'm a bit miserable

dear my spine, is now your turn rebellious?
please, I still need you to be able to stand upright
I still maintain my position, when I sit, stand, lie, carrying loads, etc
it's all for you, my spine
I hope you can still hold me

dear my spine, i'm sorry
i love you :*

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