risyamyurisya

a f r a i d

2011-02-17T20:42:00.002+07:00

im too afraid.
too afraid 'cuz i know,
losing someone we love is hurt.

such a broken vow.
that scar won't disappear easily.

i just can't trust other easily.
just too afraid.

i do

2011-02-01T00:44:00.001+07:00

yes,
i love him.
i do love him.

GOD, please make us stronger

2011-01-08T22:22:00.004+07:00

ok, kinda weird.
like has been planned.
neatly arranged.

but i, us, dunno what and why.
what they plan.
what they're talkin' 'bout behind us
why they're bein' like this.
everythin' seemed to be hidden.

yes, we dunno anythin', but we know
there was somethin' weird, related to us.

now, I, we, wanna ask, what is our fault?
did we make you feel bad?

hey! come on.
we're friend. family.

please, don't be like this.
we can share .

support each other, then.

best friend, i guess

2011-01-04T09:52:00.001+07:00

don't mind me, boy.

you're my best friend, i guess.

trust me.

long lasting friend.

h o w

2011-01-04T01:04:00.002+07:00

how do i tell you?
how do i give a spirit to you?

hey!

cheer up, dude!

you still have a chance, boy.
you still have me, us.

i know you can make it.

that's what friends are for.

g u i l t y

2011-01-03T18:53:00.001+07:00

im feelin' guilty rite now.

because of you.

you

i've been waitin' for so long.
yes
it's almost a year.

im tired

and now
im leavin'

leavin' you behind.

you're down.

am i wrong?

is it the rite time?

i'll try, dear :)

2011-01-02T19:43:00.002+07:00

make me believe.

then

i'll try :)

1 + 1 = 11

2011-01-01T23:45:00.002+07:00

ok..

yep, the day!

oh GOD, i've made my decision.
yes,him.

but, still, i feel doubt.

sorry,
but
i'll try.. :)

damn it's true

2010-12-29T17:06:00.002+07:00

ok then,

long after breaking up with him.
(it's almost 2 years)

yeah, still single.

dunno why
I do not want to start a new relationship with anyone.
yes, anyone.

dunno whether this is related to him
or
did I refuse it?

STOP

2010-12-29T16:16:00.003+07:00

i know exactly what i want.

please stop make me doubt.
please stop doing that annoying things.
please stop bein' so child.
please stop bein' a drama king.

i hate it.

stop.
or
i leave.

no one

2010-12-26T19:31:00.002+07:00

geez!!

i want nobody.
no one.
not you.
not him.
or someone else.

damn!

one is better

grrrrr... X(((

m y d o u b l e

2010-12-21T18:55:00.003+07:00

i don't mind.

hey my double~
do you know how hard i keep my heart believing you?
do you know how hard i tell my self to trust you?
do you know how hard i keep telling my self to wait?

yes, i do love you, my boy..
and i'm waiting for those little words :)

d o u b l e

2010-12-04T20:27:00.002+07:00

hey hoo there~

where's my double?

oh, i find him!

here..
he's hidin' inside of my heart.

hey, double~
what are you doin' there?

don't go anywhere..
just stay here :)

s t i l l

2010-11-23T10:13:00.001+07:00

yes, still wanting him.
him, only him..

not you, or even someone else.

only him!

-lee min ho-

s to the h to the g

2010-11-03T19:50:00.002+07:00

lovely famz~

my 2nd family.
part of my life.

my 2nd priority.

hey november !

2010-11-02T23:20:00.001+07:00

hello november~

will november be my month?
ahhahah, hope so.

hey, cheer up november!
don't be sad anymore :)

love is . . .

2010-10-31T21:17:00.002+07:00

I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone,
but I can tell you what it is for me
love is knowing all about someone,
and still wanting to be with them more than any other person,
love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself,
including the things you might be ashamed of,
love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone,
but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you

-----and-----

Love is when you shed a tear and still want him,
it's when he ignores you and you still love him,
it's when he loves another girl but you still smile
and say I'm happy for you,
when all you really do is cry

come and go

2010-10-29T20:25:00.002+07:00

you come and go.

like nothing happened between us.

oh yes

probably does not happen between us.

hahah, i just wondering . . .

can you stay here??

or

better i let you go?

another

2010-10-27T21:32:00.002+07:00

another game was started.
another story just begin.
another love seems to grow up.

the reason is . . .

2010-10-15T01:54:00.002+07:00

i know the reason why i'm alone.
i know the reason why i still single.
i know the reason why i didn't interest in every male around me.
i know the reason why i'm happy being alone.
i know the reason why i'm proud to be single.

i know exactly why....

it's because "HIM"

hello ~

2010-10-10T14:29:00.003+07:00

hello dear..
how are you?
i hope you are fine, today..

I want to talk to you for a moment.
or maybe just say hello~

hello~ hello~

waiting, because i love you

2010-10-07T21:31:00.003+07:00

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretend that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish...

- Momei Qu

Well,
honestly
I love you.
and it has been almost a year.
I will still be waiting for you.
waiting for the words from you...

because i love you

i love you (him)

2010-10-05T01:53:00.001+07:00

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most:
saying something and wishing you had not,
or
saying nothing, and wishing you had?
-unknown-

nothing to say but i love you(him)

yesterday once more

2010-09-23T23:10:00.002+07:00

yesterday, i want you back.
there was a momment with you.
you cared me so much.
you made me feel safe.

honestly, i guess,
you stayed close because you wanted to keep me.

thank you.

and please,
I want to go back to yesterday once more :)

holding hands - wondering

2010-09-18T21:24:00.003+07:00

i saw you, holding hands,
standing close to someone else.
- Brian McKnigt.One Last Cry -

aigoo~ still wondering the mr.right is right here
but, who is he??

i just got some bad news from the boys out there.
i'm waiting, but he's nowhere.

yeah, i just wondering...someday

sign

2010-09-05T22:10:00.001+07:00

please give me a sign.
one or better more,
so i can tell you what i feel for you.

just sign.

part time lover??

2010-09-03T19:05:00.002+07:00

i don't really know that means.
hmm..

i just feel weird thinking of that.

no, i don't want to call him as my part time lover.
i have a crush with him, yes i do.
but i'm sure it's not a part time.

this feeling may be grows up, later..
who knows, right??

one thing, he's always make me happy. :)

life = game

2010-08-24T19:08:00.003+07:00

life is such a game for me.
you will lose or win at the same time.
you will never know it till the final.

ok, i'm in your game..
no..i mean, i was.

i'm in the final now,
but, i don't know if i win or lose

one thing you have to remember.
it's my life and it means, it's my game

so, the conclusion is in my arms

. . .

2010-08-23T21:49:00.003+07:00

should i give up?

i've been thingking this before i got the real.

i'm done with you.

conclusion?

2010-08-23T21:40:00.003+07:00

so, this is the conclusion?
after all the times i wasted for waiting?

how dare you!

ok, it's not your fault.
it's mine.

thank you.

you're not mine

2010-07-25T22:33:00.004+07:00

you're not mine..
i should force my self to realize that you're not mine..
i just need an assurance.
ok, should i wait for you again?
no i guess..
i let you go,
or please let me go away..
cause you're not mine. :(

new comer

2010-07-25T01:22:00.003+07:00

i think i found someone new.
ya, i don't know exactly what i feel.
but, i guess, i have a little crush to him..
*just a little*
hhh..actually, i still waiting for another boy.
still waiting for his words

my birthday

2010-07-22T23:26:00.003+07:00

yey!!
that's my birthday cake.. :)
so delicious, hmm.
oke,today is my birthday.
and you know, my birthday was never special.
there was no celebration, no special gift.
sad indeed :(
I always expect more on my birthday,
but i know, it won't happen..

but, there is one thing that makes me happy,
he became the first person who said happy birthday to me
at 00:07 :)

thank you.. :)

miss baby yoogeun :(

2010-07-21T23:17:00.005+07:00

how cute he is.. :)
i really missing him so much.
is he grow up well?

you'll be sorry

2010-07-20T12:50:00.002+07:00

One day believe me you'll be sorry,
You're gonna feel this pain,
One day you'll see me and remember,
The promises you made,
Just wait and see how you'll be sorry,
One day believe me, you'll come running,
Back to me again

i just feel like i'm dying,
but don't know why...
*sigh*

just tell me

2010-07-20T12:36:00.004+07:00

Don't waste this precious time
Say you'll be mine
It's not hard to do
Just tell me you feel it too
it's time
Say you'll be mine

ahahha..i'm goin' crazy~

look alike??

2010-07-18T10:53:00.003+07:00

for some reason every time I see Lee Minho,
my heart was beating.
not because I am a big fan of him,
but I felt that "he" looks like Lee Minho ..
ahhahah ..
it's kind a weird huh?,
but this is really happening XD

jebal

2010-07-18T10:07:00.006+07:00

I intend to devote my feelings in two languages, Korean and English ..
hahahahha .. I do not mean to boast,
just wanted to try something new.. :)

그래, 난 단지 강의와 춤을 생각하고 있어요.
단지, 내가 중요하지 않은 다른 일들에 대해 생각하고 싶지 않아요.
나는 중요하지 많은 것들을 생각 질렸어.
나는 이런 것들에 대해서 생각 때문에 아무것도 못했어.
너도 알다시피, 난 당신에 대해 너무 깊이 생각하지됩니다.
너 정말 내가, 당신은 반대뿐만 아니라 자신을 위해 주저을 의심했다.
내가 뭘해야 모르겠어, 또 무슨 말을해야할지 모르겠어요.
제발 내게 너무 오래 기다려 내 감정을 이해하시기 바랍니다하지 않습니다.
너도 알다시피, 내가 말하려는 주저없이 네 정말이 말을하는 경우.
미안해, 내가 부담이 같은 것들로 내 마음을 싫어 중요하지 않습니다.
당신이 중요하지, 말은하지 않지만 그냥 이해하시기 바랍니다.
죄송하지만, 당신은 당신을 사랑합니다 알고 있어야합니다.
감사합니다

-----romanization-----

geulae, nan danji gang-uiwa chum-eul saeng-gaghago iss-eoyo.
danji, naega jung-yohaji anh-eun daleun ildeul-e daehae saeng-gaghago sipji anh-ayo. naneun jung-yohaji manh-eun geosdeul-eul saeng-gag jillyeoss-eo.
naneun ileon geosdeul-e daehaeseo saeng-gag ttaemun-e amugeosdo moshaess-eo.
neodo aldasipi, nan dangsin-e daehae neomu gip-i saeng-gaghajidoebnida.
neo jeongmal naega, dangsin-eun bandaeppunman anila jasin-eul wihae jujeoeul uisimhaessda.
naega mwolhaeya moleugess-eo, tto museun mal-eulhaeyahalji moleugess-eoyo.
jebal naege neomu olae gidalyeo nae gamjeong-eul ihaehasigi balabnidahaji anhseubnida.
neodo aldasipi, naega malhalyeoneun jujeoeobs-i ne jeongmal-i mal-eulhaneun gyeong-u.
mianhae, naega budam-i gat-eun geosdeullo nae ma-eum-eul silh-eo jung-yohaji anhseubnida.
dangsin-i jung-yohaji, mal-eunhaji anhjiman geunyang ihaehasigi balabnida.
joesonghajiman, dangsin-eun dangsin-eul salanghabnida algo iss-eoyahabnida. gamsahabnida

-----translation-----

OK, I'm only thinking about the lecture and dance.
only that, I do not want to think about other things that are not important.
I'm tired of thinking of many things that are not important.
I did not get anything by thinking about these things.
You know, I should not think about you too deep.
you really made me doubt, hesitation against you as well for myself.
I do not know what I should do,
I also do not know what to say.
please, do not make me wait too long,
please understand my feelings.
You know, I hesitate to say yes if you really say those words.
sorry, I do not want to burden my mind with things like this are not important.
does not mean you're not important,
but please just grasp.
sorry, but you must know that I love you.
thank you.

always believe

2010-07-15T17:18:00.004+07:00

one thing in my life
I always remember that we have one chance in every opportunity,
we just need to try hard and pray.
results are not an important matter, as long as we tried hard,
any results that came out later will not disappoint us.
believe that everything we do will give good results..
always believe that GOD is always there beside us.. :)

feel a little confused

2010-07-14T19:09:00.003+07:00

ok, you come again.
you make me doubt, surely..
i'm not sure 'bout my feelings.
you always come and go as you want.
you never want to understand my feelings.
what should i do?
should i wait?
or maybe i better go.

i feel a little confused, thank you.

tired of waiting

2010-07-13T21:16:00.003+07:00

you know, i'm still here..
i'm still waiting for you.
still waiting for those words that would you say to me..
I'm going crazy.
Every single day feels like a year.

Do you still remember me?

hmm..waiting, but no word from you :(

i'm a loner

2010-07-12T18:58:00.004+07:00

i'm a loner i'm a loner daradiridaradu~
hahahahha

that song always play in my head..

CNBLUE - i'm a loner

oh my, now i really love that group,
esp JUNG YONG HWA :))

hahahhaha..yeah, it's my life :)

he's nowhere

2010-07-11T18:36:00.003+07:00

I am skeptical about your feeling..
it was nearly one year, since i know you.
sorry if I ever ignoring you,
but now I realize that i love you.

you are always there
but I never realized that, i'm sorry..

*sigh*
being sad at love, shedding tear at love
I should force myself to erase you. I should do so since you abandoned me
You don’t even call me first anymore.. :(

one step closer

2010-07-11T10:44:00.004+07:00

hmm..ok, countdown the days,
one step closer..
i'm talking about 2 or more things in here.
1. pass the exam
2. pass the audition of dance competition
3. find someone

hahah..
like simple right?
but, it's totally hard to do.

all the things i have to do is learn more, practice more and pray for the best *prepare for the worst too*

my new life is getting better now.. ^^

dan konflik pun dimulai

2010-07-10T00:39:00.003+07:00

oke..
konflik ini sebenarnya sudah ada, hanya saja sekarang ini benar-benar sulit dipendam..
saya cuma ingin diberikan sebuah kepercayaan yang menyatakan bahwa "ya, kamu bisa"
hanya itu,

saya juga ingin mereka percaya bahwa apa yang saya lakukan adalah hal yang positif..
saya memang tidak pandai berkata, hanya bisa menuliskan apa yang ada di pikiran asya lewat blog ini.

oke.
saya perjelas, konflik yang sedang saya hadapi adalah mengenai dance.
dance itu bagi saya adalah suatu hobi sekaligus kebutuhan.
lewat dance, saya bisa melepas penat, mengekspresikan apa yang saya inginkan, dan bisa menjadi diri saya seutuhnya..
mungkin orang lain memiliki cara pandang yang berbeda mengenai hal ini, namun bagi saya, saya tidak bisa jika tidak menari.
dance sudah menjadi bagian dari hidup saya.
walaupun baru saya jalani selama 1 tahun lebih, tapi saya benar-benar merasakan bahwa inilah hidup saya.
hmm..berlebihan memang, tapi memang ini yang saya rasakan sekarang.

maaf, buat semua yang merasa kecewa atau merasa tidak enak karena ini semua..
saya juga bingung harus menjelaskan seperti apa,
yang saya ingin, pecaya bahwa saya tidak akan melenceng dari tujuan utama saya..

bored

2010-05-06T18:43:00.003+07:00

hmm..bloggie again~

my life is suck right now..
i hate my life, everyday still goin the same way~
ah..so bored~

nothing to do to make my life bein' colorful..
what should i do???
i lost my change,
i lost my time to do the fun things,
i lost everything!!!!!

i've been trying hard to get it, but i got nothing..

hey YOU!!! bring my life back!!!

haruskah dokter hanya menjadi dokter?

2010-03-17T16:38:00.002+07:00

pertanyaan yg terkadang muncul di pikiran kita secara tiba2..
kita selalu berpikir bahwa "kalo uda masuk fakultas kedokteran, ya pasti jadi dokter lah"
pemikiran seperti itu tidaklah salah, tapi apakah cukup hanya menjadi "SEORANG DOKTER" ??
kalau ditanya satu per satu pada setiap dokter, pasti ada hal2 yg ingin mereka lakukan selain praktek di rumah sakit atau di rumah, ataupun segala hal yg berhubungan dengan aktivitasnya sebagai seorang dokter..
mulai terexpose kalangan dokter yg merambah ke dunia lain, mencoba hal baru yg sangat berbeda dengan dunia ke-dokter-annya, hey!tidak ada yg melarang, bukan?
bisa dibilang, melepas penat dan stress selama bekerja, atau mungkin sambil mengisi waktu luang *saya kurang yakin mereka punya waktu luang.hehe*

sebenarnya, maksud saya menyinggung masalah ini ya berkaitan dengan apa yg saya rasakan saat ini *cat: walaupun saya belum resmi menjadi dokter.
yaaa on my way lah*

saya tidak ingin hanya menjadi seorang dokter.
saya ingin menjadi dokter yg berbeda, ya bisa dalam hal ke-dokteran-an, ataupun dalam hal lainnya..
saya ingin menjadi seorang dokter yg serba bisa, cita-cita saya sih ingin merambah dunia entertainment, tp bukan menjadi selebritis melainkan seorang pekerja seni..
impian yg terlalu muluk?saya rasa tidak.
bukankah yg namanya mimpi itu lebih baik setinggi mungkin?tp dengan tidak mengabaikan potensi yg kita miliki ya..
makin banyak yg kita tau, makin luas wawasan kita kan?
tau banyak hal tidak bisa hanya dari satu sumber..

jadi, haruskah dokter hanya menjadi dokter?

QUEEN?!

2010-03-16T17:03:00.002+07:00

queen?what r u you thinking when you hear or read that word?
hmm..
love that word!

owowow..my heart beat fast!
can you feel my heartbeat?wew..

OMO!IM LOVING HIM!!
THE BOY WHO CALL ME QUEEN!!
*blushing* XD

apa kabar semua?

2010-03-16T10:14:00.002+07:00

wahwah..udah sekian lama *hampir 1 taun* ga blogging lg..
kangen, bnyak hal yg pengen diceritain, tp waktu tdk mendukung..
how's my life?
still the same, do the same thing, feel the same way,,
nothing was change actually..
hmm.. yeah, except my activity in college.
hey!i'm in college now..yippie..

mm.. 'bout my obsession?i hate him now, so much!!
dont wanna meet him again, ever!
now i have my new life, my new obsession of course..
dont you ask bout my love story..hahah..its so freaky..but i think, im already find the mr.right.
oh im hopping!

well,,enough for today..
see ya!

terjebak.

2009-10-30T21:28:00.004+07:00

terjebak dalam situasi yg sangatsangatsangat tidak menyenangkan!!!

bingung sama diri sendiri, sebenernya mau gimana sih????

3 orang sekaligus??!!!!!
menyebalkan sekali!!
dan semuanya ga jelas maunya apa dan gimana..
hmmmmm...sebenernya sih kalo dipikir2, akunya yg aneh.ngasi harepan kesemua orang.
padahal aku juga blom tau harepan yg aku kasih tuh emg harepan ato cuma harepan kosong?

yayayyayayay...konyol sekali.
rrrrrrrrr...tp sekarang uda mulai kerasa, yg mana yg bener2 aku pengen..
hmm..tinggal nunggu waktu aja. ^^

YOU

2009-09-09T23:30:00.004+07:00

Why are you not there? can I not see you?
Are my eyes looking too far?

you cant avoid me, you just look at me in the eyes..

please..im begging to you.

it can be so nice, huh?!

not totally obsessed.

i realized..

i love you.

YOU..
PLEASE LOOK AT ME..

he's back

2009-08-17T13:01:00.001+07:00

i try to get over him.coz im totally obsessed by him..

but now, he's back..

oh what can i do?

i cant forget bout him..actually

ahh somebody help me!!
i feel a little confuse.ah no TOTALLY CONFUSED!!

babo!!!!

i've been waited for so long..
waited for him.

ah dont know what to do!!

teuku, babooo!!!

unreachable

2009-07-30T00:57:00.002+07:00

terjebak dalam situasi yg sangat tidak mengenakan.
terjebak diantara 2 lelaki yg tidak dapat diraih.
keduanya bukan dr masa lalu, mereka datang begitu cepat dengan selang waktu yg tidak begitu lama.
kishaindra erwin yordansyah.
teuku erry mahardika maulana yuweldri.
sengaja saya menyebutkan nama keduanya.
berharap mereka membaca tulisan ini meskipun mustahil mereka lakukan..
ada persamaan diantara mereka.
alis tebal.
dan sama2 tidak teraih.
hmm..memang tidak ada yg tidak mungkin.
tp ini sungguh mustahil.
benar2 tidak bisa diraih.keduanya.
sungguh.

entah bagaimana perasaan ini datang.aneh memang.
ya beginilah.
saya sudah mencoba kembali ke dunia nyata.
tp khayalan mengalahkan segalanya.sangat kuat.

ah..mereka datang hampir bersamaan dan memberikan efek yg luar biasa pada saya.
saya hampir tidak bisa membedakan antara khayalan dan kenyataan.

tp..apakah mereka hanyalah sebuah obsesi?
saya bisa mengatakan ya dan tidak.

terjebak dan tidak bisa diraih.
hah..menyedihkan

displeased kibum

2009-07-20T10:06:00.002+07:00

displeased..

smile, please..

heartheart kibum..

antara khayalan dan kenyataan

2009-07-19T20:55:00.002+07:00

makin bingung sama apa yg sbnernya aku rasain..
aku tau mungkin ini semua memang hanya sebuah khayalan, tp aku jg tau bahwa sbnernya diantara semua ini terselip sebuah kenyataan.

kamu tuh jauh banget.tp aku selalu ngerasa deket..
aku tau, separuh dari kamu itu hanya khayalanku.tp bukan berarti mustahil jadi kenyataan..

ada kamu di dalam dirinya.
mungkin aku menginginkannya juga, krn aku tau rasanya sulit meraihmu..

tp asalkan kau tau, dia pun sulit kuraih..

just wanna be your woman

2009-07-06T20:21:00.002+07:00

wanna be "alistebal"'s woman
just wanna be your woman..

i love you..
since i try to be you..

i love you.you.
the real you..
not him.
no one else.
nobody but you..

just give me your smile..
its make me happy..

"he"

2009-07-06T16:01:00.003+07:00

welcome to my world.
our world..

please stand by me..

ahhh..love him much!!! <3<3<3<3

XOXO

stand by me

2009-06-17T18:51:00.001+07:00

together make it love.
forever making you smile.

stand by me.

you.

lockey.

only you.

lockey.

My KEY

2009-06-14T11:59:00.002+07:00

extraordinary 'bout this feeling.
i know him.
care 'bout him.^^

oh my..oh my..

im in love with him.(SURELY!!!)

my KEY

SHINy Girls

2009-06-11T20:12:00.002+07:00

shiny girls 1st debut.may in november..

hope it will be sooner.

SHINy Girls.fighting!!!

graze

2009-06-07T18:22:00.003+07:00

Have you tried thinking about me Given any thought about me
The times we stayed together like lovers flying free

I still love you! Seems like I should forget you
But when I see the picture that we took together I can't ever forget you

you gave me a heart break!!!

_SHINee-graze_

jealousy

2009-05-29T20:38:00.002+07:00

jealousy how wrong can you be?
to fall in love was my very 1st mistake.
how to know i was far too much in love to see?
you led me on you.
couldnt lose you.
couldnt fail.
you had suspicion on my trail.
i wasnt woman enough to let you hurt my pride,
now, im only left with my own.
can you be with matters of the heart.
life is much too short to while away with tears.
if only you could see just what you do to me
you tripped me up.
you brought me down.
you bring me sorrow.
you cause me pain.
when will you let go?
gotta hold of my possessive mind.
turned me into a jealous girl.
now it matters.
not if i should live or die.
cause im only left with my own jealousy..

do nothing!

2009-05-23T21:25:00.002+07:00

just keep on that way.

stay close.dont move

and do nothing!!

just give me a big smile.as always you did to me..

:D

and do nothing!!!

hate it girl

2009-05-20T22:18:00.001+07:00

and i think im gonna hate it girl.

make up,,shake up,,break up,,

replay..replay..replay

now playing : SHINee-Replay

cuma satu

2009-05-18T19:23:00.003+07:00

cuma pengen satu..

BAHAGIA..

sendiri ataupun tidak..

cuma pengen satu..

KENYAMANAN..

sendiri ataupun tidak..

cuma satu..

KAMU..

boleh ataupun tidak..

cuma satu..

tidak lebih..

hanya satu..

regret

2009-05-17T21:13:00.001+07:00

sorry..

something.regret..

dont ask me.

i dont know.

just.regret..

maaf

2009-05-17T17:53:00.002+07:00

aku gatau cara agar kamu mengerti.
aku cuma ga ingin kamu sedih.

aku cuma ingin kamu tahu bahwa aku hanya ingin sendiri.

maaf..
aku gatau cara untuk memberitahumu.
aku terlalu takut.

maaf..

sendiri

2009-05-17T17:38:00.002+07:00

aku cuma ingin sendiri..

tanpa kamu atau dia..
atau siapapun yg mengganggu kebahagiaanku..

aku hanya ingin bersama sahabat dan keluargaku..itu saja

dan hanya ingin bahagia..

sendiri..

bahagia..

replay

2009-05-16T18:52:00.003+07:00

replay..replay..replay..

and i think im gonna hate it girl..

make up,,shake up,,brake up..

hffft...
replay.

uncomfortable

2009-05-15T16:25:00.001+07:00

none

i just wanna go somewhere.
bring my self.
far away.

find a place to chill.
to hide.
make me feel comfort.

now..its uncomfortable.

single is happy

2009-05-14T18:08:00.001+07:00

im single and very happy..

hmmm..its better right??

someday i'll know..
someday i'll get..

hidden

2009-05-14T17:22:00.003+07:00

something hidden privatly..

no one else know..
only me and my self..
and maybe you,,

if heart could talk..
something hidden privatly come out in my way..

hidden..

terlalu cepat

2009-05-12T16:38:00.003+07:00

terlalu cepat mengambil keputusan..
terlalu gegabah pula..

seperti ada yang mengejar..tapi bukan siapa2..
tapi seakan-akan aku memang harus berlari..

lelah memang,,tapii..
aku memang harus berlari

aku sadar kalau aku terlalu cepat berlari,
tapi harus gimana lagii??

terlalu cepat..dan tidak selamat :((

hanya ingin sendiri

2009-05-12T16:09:00.003+07:00

hmm..
memang sulit..
lebih dari apa yang aku bayangin..

sulit..sungguh..

sekarang aku hanya ingin sendirii..
benar2 sendiri..
hanya ada aku,,sahabatku,,dan keluargaku,,

sendiri...

boleh?

2009-05-11T22:02:00.002+07:00

bolehkah aku mengajakmu untuk berlari bersamaku??

berlari..tanpa beban..hanya kesenangan..

hanya berlari..tak lebih.
karena tak mungkin untuk lebih lagi..

berlari

2009-05-11T21:45:00.003+07:00

bisa dibilang ini adalah sebuah pelarian..
bisa dibilang ini adalah sebuah persinggahan..
tak tahu pasti apa ini sebenarnyaa.

aku tak menyangkal bahwa ini adalah sebuah pelarian..
aku memang berlari dari masa lalu yang indah sekaligus menyakitkan..
maaf..
aku hanya tidak bisa berdiam diri menahan sakit melihatmu bahagia..
bukan denganku..

aku hanya ingin mengalihkan perhatianku..
mengalihkan duniaku untuk sejenak..
sampai aku temui kebahagiaanku sendiri..

aku memang egois.kaupun begitu..

tiap aku melihatmu..aku tidak bisa mengalihkan perhatianku pada yang lain..
sekalipun aku berusaha untuk membiarkanmu..

harus berapa kali aku menangis??
harus seberapa kuat aku nahan ini semua??

dia selalu aku bandingkan..
dan selalu ada keraguan..

aku harus gimana???????

kau benar..aku memang bodoh
tapi aku tahu.aku bodoh bukan karena kemauanku..

aku tahu,,semuanya tidak bisa diubah..

biarkan aku berlari..entah sampai kapan..entah sampai dimana.

aku dan jiwaku berlari..

doubtful

2009-05-11T21:08:00.002+07:00

dunno why..

i feel doubt.

hfft..

doubtful!!!! :(

to walk a path that never ends

2009-05-05T20:11:00.003+07:00

you make me feel brand new..

you held my life within your hands.
only you, cared when i neede a friend..
only you i can depend.
to walk a path that never ends.

hope this feeling is true.
'bout you.
'bout me.
'bout us.
'bout everything..

precious love.precious friend..

im in love

2009-05-04T16:39:00.002+07:00

im in love.
yes.im sure.

hope this feeling is true.love actually..

close to me.
everyday's like a dream.in heaven..
always happy.
happy song always playing..

i cant hide from this feeling.
im waiting for this love like this again..then it comes.slowly..
unexpetedly..

no matter what they say.
no matter what it takes.
im in love.and happy all day long..

lucky im in love

2009-05-02T19:59:00.001+07:00

lucky im in love wit my bestfriend.

oldfriend actually.

he makes me happy.all day..
2nd may.1st date.

lucky im in love.
unconditionally.
unpredictable.
extraordinary.
unnatural.

but im happy!!
thank youuu. :)

in love with you all the time

2009-04-28T20:06:00.002+07:00

love you so much!!!

all the time.
all the way.

love you.

ahhh..love you so much..

thank youuu.. :)

wait and see

2009-04-28T19:33:00.002+07:00

sabar.
just waiting.

wait and see.
how long.

lets see.

i love you

2009-04-26T07:11:00.003+07:00

i love you.
three little words.

can i hear from you?
can i feel from you?

is it wrong if i love you more than anyone?

beloved.

unconditionally in love.only hope.

2009-04-26T06:41:00.004+07:00

hmm..

dunno why.
unconditionally.

cant hide this feeling.
cant keep my soul apart.
just want to be so close.

though i cant reach you.

please.answer my beg.
i begged you, remember?
2 days im waiting.
but nothing.

its frustrating me.

unconditionally in love with you.
always.

please.im begging you

but,,you dont want me back, right.
only hope.
its my only hope.
you're my only hope.

i love you.
always have.always will.

please dont be my only hope.

only one

2009-04-25T17:30:00.003+07:00

its the only one way to kill my feeling for you.
i have to hate you.
im sorry.

i have to.
coz my feeling so deep.
and you know that i dont want to be apart.

sorry if i hurt you.
but you have hurted me so well.
since long years ago.

its the only one way.
im sorry.

my heart hurted so much.

when the time comes

2009-04-25T17:03:00.003+07:00

i dunno why.
i just sitted down in front of the computer.
and then,,it happened.
i try to control my self, but its hard.
im hating him.already.

i hate this time.
i hate being lonely.
and i hate him with his TOY!!

im sorry,,
but its what im feeling right now.
everything was gone.
leave me alone.
and no one else can be here for cheer me up,,make me laugh.

no one even care 'bout my feeling!
im so tired.
please.i just want to be happy.

and when the time comes,,
im done.

im done with you.
with everything.

i just need someone who can hold me tight.
can be here,beside me, all the time.
and his heart only for me, not turn into two.

you dont want me back.
so what should i do?
stuck with you?

i just waiting for your answer.but nothing i hear.

stupid little girl.
stuck with the guy.

sorry..
when the time comes.
im not here.
im done.

i believe in you

2009-04-23T15:11:00.001+07:00

i believe you can.
im sure you can do it.
i trust you.

i know you.
i know you can make everything's ok.
i know you can do it well.
how hard you try.
i know you can do that.
i believe in you.

i believe you will stay here.
with me.
never let me sad being lonely :)

i believe.
i know you can make me smile all the time.
make me laugh.
make me happy.
make me proud having you here.

i believe.
always.

waiting

2009-04-22T17:31:00.002+07:00

waiting for your answer.
waiting for your call.
waiting for your coming.
waiting for your heart.

just waiting.

i will be right here waiting for you..

just remember.
im waiting.

always have.always will XOXO

tak jadi.tak usah.tak apa ko kalo kamu tak mau.

2009-04-22T15:16:00.002+07:00

belum ada kabar.
belum ada kata terucap.
belum ada sikap terlihat.
berarti belum.
atau bahkan tidak?

tak ada senyum yg kulihat.
tak ada tawa yg kudengar.
hanya diam.

aku malu bertanya padamu.
aku tak tahu harus bersikap bagaimana.
hanya diam yg kutangkap.
hanya benci yg kudapat.

apa aq salah meminta?
atau salah berucap?
atau salah bersikap?

tak jadi.tak apa.aq mengerti.
hanya keegoisanku yg mengalahkanku.
aq kalah dengan diriku sendiri.

tak apa.
tak usah.
tak jadi.
tak apa.

remember me.you

2009-04-21T13:48:00.001+07:00

always think.
how could you.
do you.

i dont understand what you say.
sorry.ive dissapointed you.

remember me.you

silly-softy.

how could you.
what should i do.

remember me.you

i wonder how.why
but nothing.

remember me.you.

someday.we'll be.
you have to.we.
remember me.you

i love him?!

2009-04-20T19:45:00.002+07:00

should i say i love him?
to kill my love for you.
to make sure im happy being lonely.

i couldnt!

should i let you go for your happiness though im not happy?
no!!

i just want to be happy.
with you.
not him or someone else.
but you!
is it wrong?
i dont think so!

so.what should i do?
tell me!!

should i say i love him?
so you can walk away?!

should i say i love you?
but i cant reach you.never!
because of her!!
have i told you that i hate her?!
i hate her, actually.
but i try to control my self.
you may think im selfish.yes i am.
i can fool you.
everyone.
not my heart.
i cant.

im sorry.
its hard to believe.

im sorry.
im selfish.

i can say i love him if you want.
but.im not sure, babe.

complicated

2009-04-20T19:16:00.001+07:00

i dont know how.
i dont know why.

arrrgh!!
its complicated!

is it wrong?
or right?

stop it!!
just listen!

my selfishness

2009-04-19T19:35:00.001+07:00

i just want to be your only one.
i just want to be your love.
i just want to be your everything.
in your heart forever.
no else can be there.
in your heart.
only me!
please..
dont let it end.
dont let it go.
dont let it fly.

please..
you know the reasons why.

wont it be nice?

yes.this is my selfishness.
im sorry.

its bothering me, actually.

but..yeaa i just want you to be here.forever and for always.

im sorry because of my selfishness.
no one else can be!

another secret wish

2009-04-19T19:31:00.002+07:00

hh..
speechless.

another secret wish.
can we go back to the days our love was strong?
can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong?
can somebody tell me how to get things back the way i used to be?
.haha..like boysIImen's song.

not only wish.
not only hope.

my secret wish.
only you.

im sorry.
i just want you to know.

im sorry.
because of my selfishness.
i dont want to lose you.

another secret wish.

who's the man?

2009-04-18T13:16:00.002+07:00

could you say these words?
would you say these words?
'you were not alone.im here with you.though you far away.im here to stay.'
could you?
would you?
but who?
i dont have mine.
gone.

will it back?
who's the man?
who's the man can say those words?
say again again to me.

still waiting.
who's the man?

secret wish

2009-04-17T21:32:00.002+07:00

secret wish.

i have many wishes.
secret wishes.

no one could know.
even you.

but. i guess you always know my secret wishes.

hmm..
hope my wishes come true.

im a girl of many wishes actually.
you know it well.

uuuuhh..
can i?
would you?
who knows.

please.
you know me well.so do i

you know who i am.
i know who you are.
you know our secret wishes.
our old secret wishes.
or always be our wishes.
hope will be true.
always.

secret wish.

an affair to start

2009-04-16T20:23:00.002+07:00

i dont know how when or from where.

i know how it feels.

it feels like a wonderful world.
just for you and me.and no other could change everything.

affair?i dont think so, actually.
i love you.
you love me.
its affair?big NO!!

hmm..its all about us.
nothing but us.
just the two of us.
no one else.

tell me again i want to hear.
say you love me again.

always have.
always will.

yeaah..can we call it as 'an affair to start'.
xp

lead me back

2009-04-16T19:15:00.001+07:00

want you show me the way back to your arms?

lead me back

can you see the sign to know if im close so far?

between faith and love.

lead me

lead me

lead me

show me the way.
show me the time.

please..

nothing wrong.

lead me

lead me.

three little words

2009-04-05T19:49:00.002+07:00

too scare to say those words.

three little words.

its too special.

would you say those three little words for me, babe?

three little words.

a miracle.

three little words.

who's the luckiest boy?

those little words are waiting for you.

three little words.

come with me.and say those little words.

not really hard to say those words, right?

hmm..
really want to hear your voice saying those words :)

three little words.
always for you.

three little words.

always have.
always will.

three little words.

the secrets

2009-04-04T21:17:00.002+07:00

the secrets i never know.

begitu banyak rahasia yg tidak aq ketahui.
hmm..namanya jga rahasiaa.

tp aq bukan siapasiapa.
jd aq ga perlu tw rahasia itu.

hmm..
gda yg salah sii dengan rahasiaa.
hanya sajaaa knapa mesti ada rahasiaa??

hey!
dunia ini bukan hanya milikmu.
ini dunia kita, kawan.
dan dunia ini bukan untuk dirahasiakan.

coba kau bayangkan jika dunia ini penuh rahasia.
apa yg mesti kau percaya?
semua hanyalah rahasia yg tak pernah kau ketahui.

mengapa selalu ada rahasia?
selama tidak ada yg dirugikan, mengapa harus dirahasiakan?

tp, tau segalanya tanpa ada rahasia jga tak selamanya baik.

serba salah.

hanya kau yg tau.
hanya kau yg mengerti, mengapa ada yg kau rahasiakan.

the secrets you never tell.